Vuedooangil

I am bored as hell with people. Not one person on this planet can take a effing joke. I am also tired of people from my past trying to mess with my future. So this morning I have been sitting here for like three hours drinking coffee and on Twitter and Facebook posting not doing one damn thing productive. I will probably go walk on the beach and get some clarity to me it seems as if the whole flipping world has gone mad.

The rain gets me down. Being in my current state is not helping. I really need a break here. God knows it doesnt need to be my foot or my car again …. help me. what I can say is if the universe could just throw me a few favors I will do the same…

I do not have any and never wanted one but now I am reconsidering and of course it will be hidden but I want to have just the right Counting Crow lyric and I think that since I am such a fan I will be taking mytime and getting this done right. I do not want an tramp stamp but hidden in the middle of my back is what I am thinking … back to the after thought of this I just dont know….

I am getting real tired of sitting around the house however I am not really wanting to go back to work next week either. Approaching a milestone in my age I am not feeling sorry for myself I just flipping am ready to make some changes. I am quite unhappy and the daily churning of my insides doesn’t help. I think like 99% of people actually on the internet are just lost effed up people who need to find where they fit in all this madness. Why be on the net anyway if you have so much crap going on that you do not have time to sit and whine about your life- woe is me …

Ok so last week I was going through some stuff because of other people and then on top of that my self inventory was not so good. I have decided that one thing would make it a little better get out more. So I get out and break my damn ankle WTF universe I mean really? So here I sit on my couch at 6 am and wow that plan really worked as imagined.

 Of all the things that I could do with my life I am an accountant. Hardest damn thing that I have ever done and who do you work with as an accountant? Other asshole accountants. I hate snobby ass rich people or people who try to pass as rich. Sit down and shut up because in the real jist of things it doesnt matter no one cares especially me. Pretty rich guys and fake ass women that is what you get in the wonderful world of accounting.

I want to do some things I have never done before. Take an entire plane ride and not get off in the next city due to having a damn panic attack. Sleep one night no lights (yeah Im a pathetic loser in this dept, like seeing the serial killer is going to make the experience better).

 Just get in my damn car and do what I want to do without the responsibility of ther peoples emotions and or damn questions on my back. The meds are starting to kick in I need to sleep now maybe I can bitch more later? Kthanks